Anders Lost

Small children are real stars of the free fall, too. It’s just amazing. Yet some falls will remain a mystery forever. A child once fell out of a window on the upper floor, crashing hard against the concrete floor below. In the ambulance, the child asked whether they’d put a band-aid on him now? “My child is very brave and strong. He just imagined, he could fly”, his mother said. The doctors were baffled – there were no signs of bone fractures or other injuries. Some believed it was a “slightly increased proportion of fat at his bum” that saved him. But one paramedic said: “It’s not the bum, it’s as if the angels had caught him.”


Since you are no longer there, since you suddenly went down, I am myelf in free fall. But I don’t believe in angels who would catch us, I don’t believe in the Holy Spirit, nor in the company of strangers. I don’t believe in the forgiveness of my sins and I don’t believe in eternal life. I am falling into a bottomless abyss. But I believe in this: I still believe you will come back under the right circumstance. And this is where my year of magical thinking begins.